As mentioned before, we briefly considered a planned c-section when we learned the baby might be a big baby. When we made the decision to induce and move on to a Cesarean if the labor did not progress, it never entered my mind we would have anything but a traditional vaginal delivery. The shock of have my options removed from me was quite unsettling but overall the Cesarean was not a negative experience. Even with the dour anesthesiologist, who by the way is an excellent anesthesiologist who has performed more than 10,000 spinal procedures, and the unpleasant reaction to the epidural the actual surgery itself was not that bad. I made a conscious effort not to think about what all of the pushing, pulling, and tugging was all about and focused on Russ rubbing my head and the thought of our baby girl about to be introduced into the world.
The really hard part came after the surgery…
The only think more surreal than the pushing during the surgery was when they moved me back into my bed and I watched the nurse move these legs that could have just as easily been yours onto my bed. VERY strange!
They tell me I have made an excellent recovery but it was tough at first. I was on a morphine drip for until the day after the surgery and was not happy about having to give it up. I must say, I was even less happy to find out that less than twenty four hours after I had my abdomen cut open I was supposed to get up and walk around! They have this crazy idea that the sooner you get up and move around the quicker you heal. I fought it for as long as I could and eventually they removed the IV, changed me over to Percocet and Motrin for the pain and cramping, and believe it or not I even walked to the bathroom. To say it hurt like the dickens would be quite the understatement. To be honest, it hurt like nothing I have ever experienced before – or at least nothing that I can remember experiencing.
My only real complaint with the Cesarean is not being able to pick up my child with ease. The first few days I had to have someone hand her to me, as I simply could not pick her up safely, and I really craved the ability to pick my daughter up and hold her of my own accord. Of course, without the Cesarean we would have been in a very different place, as a vaginal birth was impossible with the cord wrapped around her neck three times. And without the medication, I would not have been able to stand the pain and heal from the surgery so all and all it worked out for the best. I consider myself blessed to have such an excellent physician who did such an excellent job of taking me apart and putting me back together again.
Today, eleven days post surgery, I have what feels like a sinewy cord under the incision site and it is still sore but it does not hurt like it did even three days ago. I have been off the medication for two days and while I am still very tender I can make it up the steps in less than three minutes. 🙂